Hilaga't Kanluran

Sadyang magkaiba ang ating mundo.

Hindi ko alam pano magkakasundo.

Hindi man lang magkatagpo.

Ako ba'y may karapatang magtampo?

Sa hilaga ka at ako'y sa kanluran?

Papayag nalang bang mapaglaruan?

Ng tadhanang kailanma'y hindi nakiayon

Kahit idaan pa sa hinahon.

Nanalig na lamang sa mga binitawang salita

Ngunit di batid kung may kabuluhan pa ba?

Waring tatakas na lamang kasama ng hangin.

Na walang anumang habilin.

The Flight

The sepia pages were comforting, I thought. It was a rewind button in my cassette player.

As the lamp casts its light, my eyes flickered somewhere between sensibility and surrealism.

I drifted away like a sailboat in midair. The sound blew me away. With eyes closed, I searched its origin. Your heart and soul lingered in the air waves. It was hypnotic. Every chord you hit was a statement I never comprehended. I never did, for it knows no reason. My sailboat danced carelessly to your melody. Like a child I swayed. Like a child I hummed. You froze, until you turned your head. The brilliance of your eyes faded as you stared at me. I was suddenly regretful.

A familiar aroma infiltrated my senses that brought me back to my chair. The sepia pages still lie in front of me, luring me. I immediately stood and mustered all the strength left in me. Though my knees were shaking I managed to run away from it. Never again, shall I play its game.

Abiso kay Tadhana

Sapat na ba...

na mangapa na lamang sa mapag laro mong lirika?

na maki-indak sa ningning ng iyong mata?

Ako'y minsan ng nawala sa aking hinagap.

Nang hindi sinasadyang may umakap.

Oh tadhana..sadyang ika'y mapaglaro.

Kailangan pa ba akong magsumamo.

Na huwag mo na akong muling dalhin.

Sa isang lugar na puro lamang hiling.

So yeah....

Someone Like You

-Adele

I heard, that your settled down.
That you, found a girl and your married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited.
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best, for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.

You'd know, how the time flies.
Only yesterday, was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead", yay.

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yay yeh yeah

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I Have All the Reasons

I believed blindly. I'm like a child testing the cold waters waiting for the coldness to hurt my toes. I hesitated and pulled back. I just watched.

Words, harmony, melody, movement, and images were exchanged. I believed them blindly. I drowned myself with possibilities that could never be.

She's a 10 and I'm a 1. I thought you said 0 was null. I believed you blindly.

You brought me higher than I could ever be, only to let me lose the battle with gravity. You said it was you and it ain't me. That, I never believed.

I'm trying to hold my head up high. I'm trying not lose it all. I'm trying not to be engulfed with anger and bitterness, even if I have all the reasons to be one.

Of Chasing Dreams Like that of Pavements

At age 14 I already knew what I wanted and where I wanted to be... I dreamed on my own. At age 16 I realized that the most essential question to answer is how to get there. At age 17 I realized that I wouldn't be able to get it my way. At age 18 I was framed into something/someone I'm not. At age 21 I'm sure what I don't want, but lost touch of what I want . At age 23 I'm in a crossroad. At age 24... this ain't a crossroad baby! This a highway!

The world spinning too fast; I'm in a daze. If there's one thing I'm rich with right now; these are questions. Questions after questions after questions and it goes on. I keep on chasing a dream that I forgot to live in the now. I keep on chasing a dream and I'm dead tired because it's just too fast for me. I keep on chasing a dream, which I'm not sure is mine. I keep on chasing a dream of which I know nothing of. I keep chasing a dream... like that of a pavement, not knowing where it's leading me to. And this when I needed to STOP, despite the circumstances are telling me not to. I just need to.. to keep my sanity, for whoever's sake!

This is the best time I feel more than lucky to have known Christ and to have Him in my life. Though, in my lens it seems blurry, I know in His' is a perfect picture of his great plans for me. Jeremiah 29:11.

Fogged Up Glass Wall

It was quick. The words escaped your mouth quickly and you even tried to cover it up with something else. But it took me forever to hear it. It's like I was in a slow motion film, only this one is no fantasy. Reality bites hard and it is damn painful. I let it pass. But it kept knocking on my door waiting for me to process it.

And as I did, the once invisible walls that I kept on encountering every time I take another step closer to you has now finally taken its shape. I can clearly see it and feel it between us. I wish they were just sliding wooden doors so I'd not see what's behind it. The glass walls are indeed deceiving. I thought it wasn't really there that you're within my reach. But the closer I get to it and as I open my mouth to speak, the glass gets fogged up. And this for once showed me that there is that glass wall which has long been existing between us. And as you approach me, every time you patronize me with your subtle words, you make everything more blur. The fog took my form. And that explained everything. The fog told me more about how you weren't any different from any of your kind- Genus: Machine, Species: Ego Feeder with no intentions or whatsoever.

I'm left with three options: 1. Break the glass between us; 2. Wipe it clean; or 3. Leave it as it is- fogged up glass. Breaking the glass would either hurt me or you or perhaps both of us. I still respect you for who you are so I wouldn't want to do that. But wiping it clean shall never be an option for it shall take away all the love that's left inside me. Number three is probably the best option I've got. Leave it as it is; all fogged up. This shall remind me of the walls that will forever be between us. This will keep me ahead of your game. Yes, your game. It was yours alone, until you spoke that day. That fogged glass will remind me that there are things I can never have and which I should leave behind me, as it is.

I think it's high time for me to say, "thanks for the memories. Though, I'll be making more memories with you, only it is much different, and that I owe to myself. I shall make more memories with you with a fogged up glass wall between us.".